通訳テストと面接がおとといあった。
数ヶ月間、頭をずっと占めてきたものが、（まぁどういう形であれ）取れた瞬間
さて私は何に向かって生きていくのだろうと、ちょっと呆然としている。
時間も自由も手に入れた。
今だったら何でもできる。本当に何でも。U name it.
でも、完全な自由を手に入れた途端、何が一番欲しいのか、何が本当にしたいのかを問われていつも立ち往生する。
うん、困った。
でも今回ばかりは逃げないでとことん考えることにしよう。
自分の選択で生きていくことは、実は簡単なことじゃないんだよね。
2009/01/23
2009/01/16
距離問題
素敵だなーと思っていたカップルが
遠距離で別れてしまうのを見るのはすごくつらい。
このご時世だからこそ、
メールも電話もできる、顔を見ながら話だってできる
いつだってつながってると信じる世界だからこそ、
生身の人間同士の触れ合いの欠落が大きな落とし穴なのかもしれない。
心の距離が近くなった分、物質的な距離をリアルに感じてしまう。
私ももうすぐに人生初の遠距離ってやつに持ち込み戦である。
遠距離で別れてしまうのを見るのはすごくつらい。
このご時世だからこそ、
メールも電話もできる、顔を見ながら話だってできる
いつだってつながってると信じる世界だからこそ、
生身の人間同士の触れ合いの欠落が大きな落とし穴なのかもしれない。
心の距離が近くなった分、物質的な距離をリアルに感じてしまう。
私ももうすぐに人生初の遠距離ってやつに持ち込み戦である。
2009/01/14
Movies 2009
The curious case of Benjamin Button
Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchette were doing really great. Even their ages in the film was ranging from teenage to very until their lives ended. Or "to very beginning" I could say. This was a long and slow movie but never got me bored. Quality CG made it real. Very serious and a never happy ending story, nonetheless, funny, sweet and heart-warming. Kanta was so excited to see it because of his favorite producer, David Fincher, who had directed "Se7en" and "Fight Club" which Brad Pitt won awards with. And seems like he was enjoyed it.
Gran Trino
Two days in a row we went to the theater. It was the last day of 2008.
None of the casts were familiar to me and except for the leading man, they were all Asians from your neighbor kind actors and actresses. Their performance wasn't so good, however, it was good enough to make audience emotional. Hilarious as you can laugh to almost choke and yet heavy as you feel helpless.
Defiance
We've been waiting for this for weeks! It's about a Jewish community who were hiding in the forest from Germans to survive at the period of holocaust. The director, Edward Zwick, is famous for the movies "The Last Samurai" and "The Blood Diamond." I love both movies, so I had great expectation on it and it turned out to be more than great! I personally like historical war/fighting movies such as The Last Samurai, Gladiator, Troy, Braveheart, King Arther and so forth. In common, those heroes movies are all about small group beating big power with some knowledge and emotional bonds. It's very simple but it's always touching. Surviving is the very very basic idea of human beings and anything alive. Movies about surviving is appealing to our emotion, because that's the natural instinct everyone has.
Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchette were doing really great. Even their ages in the film was ranging from teenage to very until their lives ended. Or "to very beginning" I could say. This was a long and slow movie but never got me bored. Quality CG made it real. Very serious and a never happy ending story, nonetheless, funny, sweet and heart-warming. Kanta was so excited to see it because of his favorite producer, David Fincher, who had directed "Se7en" and "Fight Club" which Brad Pitt won awards with. And seems like he was enjoyed it.
Gran Trino
Two days in a row we went to the theater. It was the last day of 2008.
None of the casts were familiar to me and except for the leading man, they were all Asians from your neighbor kind actors and actresses. Their performance wasn't so good, however, it was good enough to make audience emotional. Hilarious as you can laugh to almost choke and yet heavy as you feel helpless.
Defiance
We've been waiting for this for weeks! It's about a Jewish community who were hiding in the forest from Germans to survive at the period of holocaust. The director, Edward Zwick, is famous for the movies "The Last Samurai" and "The Blood Diamond." I love both movies, so I had great expectation on it and it turned out to be more than great! I personally like historical war/fighting movies such as The Last Samurai, Gladiator, Troy, Braveheart, King Arther and so forth. In common, those heroes movies are all about small group beating big power with some knowledge and emotional bonds. It's very simple but it's always touching. Surviving is the very very basic idea of human beings and anything alive. Movies about surviving is appealing to our emotion, because that's the natural instinct everyone has.
Ameli, Dean and Deluca, and Black Gold
Ameliは大好きな映画のひとつ。
最近そのSoundtruckを聴くようになったんだけど
これがなかなか素敵なんだな。
Dean & Delucaってグルメストアのマグカップをルームメートお揃いで購入。
あまりにも可愛くて
今までご愛用だったStarbucksのマグも棚に仕舞われっぱなし。
Porto Rico Importing Co.ってゆーNYで有名なコーヒー屋さん。
お店中に置かれているたっくさんの豆の中から
medium to light roasted and no acid at all and very smooth と
Pickyに豆を選んでもらい
ドリップで落とすコーヒーは最近飲んだコーヒーの中で一番おいしかった。
それを飲みながら読むBlack GoldというCoffee fair tradeを扱った映画のブログは
複雑な気持ちにさせる。
最近そのSoundtruckを聴くようになったんだけど
これがなかなか素敵なんだな。
Dean & Delucaってグルメストアのマグカップをルームメートお揃いで購入。
あまりにも可愛くて
今までご愛用だったStarbucksのマグも棚に仕舞われっぱなし。
Porto Rico Importing Co.ってゆーNYで有名なコーヒー屋さん。
お店中に置かれているたっくさんの豆の中から
medium to light roasted and no acid at all and very smooth と
Pickyに豆を選んでもらい
ドリップで落とすコーヒーは最近飲んだコーヒーの中で一番おいしかった。
それを飲みながら読むBlack GoldというCoffee fair tradeを扱った映画のブログは
複雑な気持ちにさせる。
2009/01/13
Life in New York
New York. Some call the leading city in the world.
数年前に来て以来、もう訪れることはないであろうと思っていた街へひょんなことから来ることになってもう３週間が経とうとしてるわけだが
完全サンフランシスコ贔屓の私の目にもこの街の魅力は強烈に訴えてくるものがある。
比較なんてチープなやり方は嫌いだが、SFとNYは全く違った要素をもった都市同士で
街を毎日歩きながら、SFにはなかった事を探しては楽しんでいる。
SFの年中てきとーに涼しいですよ気候と、NYのNo joke気候では、人格形成も社会形成もそりゃ変わってくるだろうと思った。
ちなみにNYの冬の寒さは、緯度が全然高いアイスランドよりもアイルランドよりも寒い。寒流とかそーいった理由だろうとは思うが。
NYのホームレスは本当に命がけ。体感気温ー１５度とかが普通にありえる屋外で生き延びることは、簡単に選択できるものではない。
SFの生ぬるい環境に生きるホームレス達は、一度こっちへきてサバイバルの厳しさを知るべきだと思う。とかんたは言っていた。
毎日氷点下の中、セーター４枚とジャケット２枚で縦と横がわからなくなるくらい着込んで歩いていると、勝手に気持ちが引き締まる。
生きることに対する執着心、そこから生まれる向上心。
厳しい気候を通してニューヨーカー達は、世界のトップ都市を作り上げてきたんだろうなと思う。
年末年始にかけてSFからきてくれたJames と Joy が連れてってくれたお店、French Roast Cafe。
その日は天気も悪く、灰色の重たい雲から粉雪が舞い落ちていた。
オーダーしたのはGrilled Vege Open Face Sandwitch と Soy Latte。
ガラス張りになっているカフェからは、道路の向こう側に古い赤レンガの、これぞNY！というようなアパートメントの並びが見え、そこに降りかかるように粉雪が舞う。
あったかいSoy Latteのカップを手のひらに包みながらぼんやりと見るその光景が、大好きでたまらなかった。
レンガ造りの古い建物、その合間に突如とあるステンドガラス張りの教会、今にも凍えそうなツンとした空気の中に舞うぽふぽふの粉雪。
寒い寒いと言って入るヨーロッパのカフェ。
SFとはまた違ったよさを、日々実感しています。
数年前に来て以来、もう訪れることはないであろうと思っていた街へひょんなことから来ることになってもう３週間が経とうとしてるわけだが
完全サンフランシスコ贔屓の私の目にもこの街の魅力は強烈に訴えてくるものがある。
比較なんてチープなやり方は嫌いだが、SFとNYは全く違った要素をもった都市同士で
街を毎日歩きながら、SFにはなかった事を探しては楽しんでいる。
SFの年中てきとーに涼しいですよ気候と、NYのNo joke気候では、人格形成も社会形成もそりゃ変わってくるだろうと思った。
ちなみにNYの冬の寒さは、緯度が全然高いアイスランドよりもアイルランドよりも寒い。寒流とかそーいった理由だろうとは思うが。
NYのホームレスは本当に命がけ。体感気温ー１５度とかが普通にありえる屋外で生き延びることは、簡単に選択できるものではない。
SFの生ぬるい環境に生きるホームレス達は、一度こっちへきてサバイバルの厳しさを知るべきだと思う。とかんたは言っていた。
毎日氷点下の中、セーター４枚とジャケット２枚で縦と横がわからなくなるくらい着込んで歩いていると、勝手に気持ちが引き締まる。
生きることに対する執着心、そこから生まれる向上心。
厳しい気候を通してニューヨーカー達は、世界のトップ都市を作り上げてきたんだろうなと思う。
年末年始にかけてSFからきてくれたJames と Joy が連れてってくれたお店、French Roast Cafe。
その日は天気も悪く、灰色の重たい雲から粉雪が舞い落ちていた。
オーダーしたのはGrilled Vege Open Face Sandwitch と Soy Latte。
ガラス張りになっているカフェからは、道路の向こう側に古い赤レンガの、これぞNY！というようなアパートメントの並びが見え、そこに降りかかるように粉雪が舞う。
あったかいSoy Latteのカップを手のひらに包みながらぼんやりと見るその光景が、大好きでたまらなかった。
レンガ造りの古い建物、その合間に突如とあるステンドガラス張りの教会、今にも凍えそうなツンとした空気の中に舞うぽふぽふの粉雪。
寒い寒いと言って入るヨーロッパのカフェ。
SFとはまた違ったよさを、日々実感しています。
2008/08/01
Night Walking
Since I work wired time, 2-10pm, I'm getting close to owls in terms of life style not a looking. Sleep late and wake up late. More active after midnight. Can see things better in the dark. Better at flying than walking. That's a lie, FYI, in case you actually believed. Anyway, I walk around in Pacific Heights and Marina area after work. Sometimes for an hour, sometimes for more than two hours. In San Francisco, the wind is always cold especially at night. Warm nights are countable. Only few nights could be too hot to sleep without a fan in a year. But I like chilly weather better anyway. I hate NY and Asian countries in summer. Hot and Humid. You would lose so much pounds in a month. So, where I was is I was walking down the bay in Marina last night, and my friend told me that if I run wildly, he didn't say "wildly" but sounds like it to me, I could be a more sophisticated woman and a more atractive person. I asked him if that is physically or abstractlly, and he said both with an example "you would be closest to what I said when you dance, I never seen it though." I was little confused by understanding what he really meant, and after walking for a while, thinking, I vaguely got it. This is my guess: he wants me to be more confident about myself and wants me to actually show it by every single move I make. Confidence is something you don't deliverately show but comes out from you naturally. I think that's what he meant and I agree with that. The next thing I gatta do is think about how I make it happen.
2008/05/31
Breaking-up
It's always painful. I will never get used to it. I can't imagine how many times more I will do that again in my life. Every time I get together with someone, I pray to God or Buddha or Maria, you name it, that he would be the one, but the prays have failed so far.
Lately one of my school mates got engaged with her high school sweetheart who I know well and they will marry this summer. They've been together for more than 6 years since high school junior. I can't imagine how they have been together for the time I had multiple ex-es. It must be great. I don't wanna marry until the age of 29 and I make all the life plans based on that. I guess everyone has a different goal and a different life. Mine is just different from hers. I broke up with someone who I could possibly marry with recently and my friend just got engaged. It's just the timing, but I can't help thinking about my ex and my possible life with him.
Lately one of my school mates got engaged with her high school sweetheart who I know well and they will marry this summer. They've been together for more than 6 years since high school junior. I can't imagine how they have been together for the time I had multiple ex-es. It must be great. I don't wanna marry until the age of 29 and I make all the life plans based on that. I guess everyone has a different goal and a different life. Mine is just different from hers. I broke up with someone who I could possibly marry with recently and my friend just got engaged. It's just the timing, but I can't help thinking about my ex and my possible life with him.
2008/04/23
Fix you
"you, me and dupree" is one of my favorite movies. It's been on HBO for a while and I have watched it more than 5 times already. I found a blog about this movie and the author of the blog says that "This movie is simply beautiful." He also comments on one sentence in the movie "I work to live not live to work!" saying "it's the quality of life."
That's something I needed to hear. Since I graduated school last December, I was always wondering what does work mean to me, and what do I wanna do for future. Here it is. I wanna work to live. I wanna do something makes me happy, makes my life beautiful. Unfortunately I am not those who knew what they wanted to be since 10. I wasn't sure what I wanna do when I chose my major in college. But I do know what makes me happy and what doesn't. I will listen to my heart and follow what I feel. I have learned and there are tons of things I will learn. I just need little more time to make my mind.
That's something I needed to hear. Since I graduated school last December, I was always wondering what does work mean to me, and what do I wanna do for future. Here it is. I wanna work to live. I wanna do something makes me happy, makes my life beautiful. Unfortunately I am not those who knew what they wanted to be since 10. I wasn't sure what I wanna do when I chose my major in college. But I do know what makes me happy and what doesn't. I will listen to my heart and follow what I feel. I have learned and there are tons of things I will learn. I just need little more time to make my mind.
2008/04/11
San Francisco Olympic Torch Relay
As well as all the news programs were occupied with live report of Olympic torch run in San Francisco yesterday, the event dominated many of San Franciscans conversation all day yesterday and today. Even though I didn't go out to the torch run, after watching the event whole time on TV I was disappointed in San Francisco. As you can see on my title of this blog, I love San Francisco, because of its liberty and understanding to all kinds of religions, ethnicity, believes, or whatsoever. Chinese people in San Francisco must be excited by Olympic in their home country, moreover, San Francisco was picked for only one city in North America. They have rights of willing to see it and be proud of it. Also Tibetans and hundreds protesters whose home country is invaded by China have rights to say "No way Olympic in China." I understand that. But what the embarrassing San Francisco did to them. Police beat up civilians who just wanted say their believes out loud. The president of San Francisco, hot, changed the route of torch run, even though thousands of audiences came just to see it. The torch runner, protected by many polices, was running pathetically.
Although I know all those are for individuals' safety, I would like to say this out loud; No matter what you guys say, San Francisco is for those who want liberty and rights. You just can't take that. I can't stop wondering if there was no other way to prevent expected violence and chaos. If there was no way giving both Chinese people and protesters chances to speak out.
I love this city, where the crazy hippies and minorities are accepted, because this city in some way leads the world. Everyone is accepted. Gays, Jews, homeless, no matter what you are, you are accepted in this city. I really hope that they are not changing their way. I want San Francisco to be the coolest city in next million years.
Although I know all those are for individuals' safety, I would like to say this out loud; No matter what you guys say, San Francisco is for those who want liberty and rights. You just can't take that. I can't stop wondering if there was no other way to prevent expected violence and chaos. If there was no way giving both Chinese people and protesters chances to speak out.
I love this city, where the crazy hippies and minorities are accepted, because this city in some way leads the world. Everyone is accepted. Gays, Jews, homeless, no matter what you are, you are accepted in this city. I really hope that they are not changing their way. I want San Francisco to be the coolest city in next million years.
2008/04/05
Honey
I like coffee with half-and-half and two packages of Splenda, occasionally soy latte, but since my discovery of usefulness of honey, I like coffee with half-and-half and honey better. It tastes smoother. I also use honey for my breakfast with three kinds of berry granola and plain yogurt. I am addicted to honey.
Since I consume more-than-average honey recently, I looked up for the health benefits of honey online. According to this website, honey is good for allegies, skin, digestion, cold, insomnia, high blood pressure, and so forth. It is less calories than sugar and there is a significant difference in how fructose and glucose are contained. It's easy for sugar to become fat, and for honey to be energy.
As I was looking up for the artile about honey, I saw only advantages to eat honey. It tastes good and with multiple health benefits, why don't I eat honey, right?
Since I consume more-than-average honey recently, I looked up for the health benefits of honey online. According to this website, honey is good for allegies, skin, digestion, cold, insomnia, high blood pressure, and so forth. It is less calories than sugar and there is a significant difference in how fructose and glucose are contained. It's easy for sugar to become fat, and for honey to be energy.
As I was looking up for the artile about honey, I saw only advantages to eat honey. It tastes good and with multiple health benefits, why don't I eat honey, right?
2008/04/04
Blackberry tea + Honey = Smile
I am a big fan of Trader Joe's. Their food is real, that's what I think. One of my favorites is their various kinds of tea. "Ginger yogi tea" had been my every night drink until I found this "blackberry tea." It's like a TAZO tea passion flavor in purple bag at Starbucks. From this little tiny tea bag, very strong flavor comes out with dark purple color. It smells and tastes like grapefruit or some kind of citrus fruits. This tea its own is really good, but I like it with honey better. A little sweetness of honey makes tea just perfect.
2008/04/03
Cafe Lovers
San Francisco is the most cafes populated city in the world; however, most of them are not franchise; therefore, there are various kinds of them and each one has unique taste.
Even though there are too many to pick one, well, if you insist, one of my most favorite cafes in San Francisco would be Blue Danube, which is on Clement and 5th Avenue in Richmond.
Even though there are too many to pick one, well, if you insist, one of my most favorite cafes in San Francisco would be Blue Danube, which is on Clement and 5th Avenue in Richmond.
This place is the Asian taste cafe, obviously it is in the middle of the second China town in SF. Ancient clothes with gold sparkles and the pictures hanging on the wall make you feel in Thailand or Indonesia (even though I have never been to either of those...) Very tiny but open place with outside tables. If you go there when sun out, it is nice and sunny. Coffees and small dishes are descent, but this Asian guy at casher is very nice and lovely. He always talks to customers and makes some jokes. There are small tables and two couches. Especially weekends, there are many people squeezing on those couches, but since they are chill-out people, it doesn't seem to bother them.
Blue Danube Coffee House
306 Clement StSan Francisco,
CA 94118-2316
Phone: (415) 221-9041