I want a grip on reality.

Check out these guys.

These guys made my day.
Norwegian guys going crazy, living their lives.

Rafting naked, diving from the bridge, camping in someone's back yard in below-freezing temperature, taking their "chicken pet" everywhere they go.
Cannonball into a freezing river in winter, naked!

When asked the reason to camp out in winter instead of staying hotels, one of the guys commented "I want to feel alive. Almost anything could be solved with money now. But I want to take care of myself. I want a grip on reality. on this world."

They are living their lives.