It's always painful. I will never get used to it. I can't imagine how many times more I will do that again in my life. Every time I get together with someone, I pray to God or Buddha or Maria, you name it, that he would be the one, but the prays have failed so far.
Lately one of my school mates got engaged with her high school sweetheart who I know well and they will marry this summer. They've been together for more than 6 years since high school junior. I can't imagine how they have been together for the time I had multiple ex-es. It must be great. I don't wanna marry until the age of 29 and I make all the life plans based on that. I guess everyone has a different goal and a different life. Mine is just different from hers. I broke up with someone who I could possibly marry with recently and my friend just got engaged. It's just the timing, but I can't help thinking about my ex and my possible life with him.
